I find myself at a crossroad once again. In life we come to them often. Sometimes the route to choose is easy and others are hard. Well it looks like I am there again and once again I am scared to move. Yes I admit it! I am SCARED!
Scared of making another wrong decision!
Scared of what others may think!
Scared to stay and scared to go!
I know what I want to do...but is it the right decision? As will all other crossroad experiences all I can do is PRAY! In past experiences I have let go and God has pointed me in the right direction. Well I thought this was the direction he wanted me in but guess what I was wrong. Sometimes the easy road is not God's answer. Of course I should have known that but fear can cloud your judgment and clog the ears. But my instincts kept telling me that something was not right. I asked God to open my eyes to some things and show me some things. What I didn't bargain for was that I would not be prepared for what I found out or the consequences of knowing...
The hardest thing to do is to trust God and your instincts. After all I do believe it is the Holy Spirit that is guiding my instincts anyway. The problem is I keep getting my will mixed up with what His. Right now all I can do is ask for forgiveness and make it right somehow.
Once again it is time to LET GO AND LET GOD!